March 2012
Mom: LET'S GO I'M READY
: 10 minutes go by
Mom: are you ready yet?????
Me: I've been standing at the door waiting for you for 10 minutes
Mom: Ok I just have to pee and change clothes and water the plants and feed the dogs and cook dinner and swim the english channel
lypophrenia: a feeling of sadness seemingly without a cause
drapetomania: an overwhelming urge to run away
escapism: a mental desire to retreat from unpleasant realities through fantasy
wanderlust: a desire to travel, to understand one’s very existence
dysania: the state of finding it difficult to get out of bed in the morning
sanctuary: a small safe place in a troubling world
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wake up: exhausted
12 am: exhausted
3 pm: fucking exhausted
5 pm: really fucking exhausted
7 pm: about to pass out
bed time: the energy of 5 million condensed suns
I can feel people getting tired of me, I can see how I annoy them, and slowly I start going back to how I use to be. I feel more worthless, and alone everyday, and the worst part is everyone thinks I’m fine. Every morning I put on a fake smile, and go to school, and pretend like everything is normal. But, instead I feel worse. And I don’t know how long I can handle it.
hmuifyoureblack:
I went on a date once
no I didn’t
